Down 7 up 8
We all fall down in life. Especially when it comes to mental health. Yesterday I had an incident. Really don’t know how my feelings became so intense. I felt like I heard a voice in my head telling me I was hated. I talk to my illness sometimes because I feel like it’s the only way I can stop the damage before the rage sets in and I do really stupid things. However my biggest trick is catching it happening before it starts. I don’t like my family to see that side of me. And although it didn’t go as bad as it should I failed yesterday. I actually punched myself in the face to try to stop. I also hit myself in the head with a door. I had ran into the other room and try to ground myself and it honestly wasn’t enough. I couldn’t bring myself back. I was beginning to dissociate and everything was going blurry and I felt drunk. But I was aware of what was happening and that’s he positive.
The amount of shame I feel today is insurmountable. I feel like any time this happens it erases all the hard work I have put in. That may not be true. However that’s how it feels. I end up falling to pieces.
The only thing I can say is get knocked down 7 times have to find a way to get up 8. Does anyone have anything to add to this? How do you rebound after a fall?
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